Dear Heavenly Father,
I get sad and start to panic when I start to think that this hope I have in my heart is based on nothing, except simple hope. And I start to get scared, and my hope and my optimism - the two things You love the most about me - starts to wane. And I start to fear.
And then I have to remind myself that I have Your word.
In the past few months, I’ve been blessed to receive many promptings from the Spirit, but I’ve lacked the courage and strength to follow them. And they always turned out to be correct. And if I had just followed the Spirit, then I wouldn’t be where I am now.
So now, whenever the feelings of fear and panic and sadness and anxiety start to creep up on me, I have to remind myself not to ignore Your promises and promptings anymore. Because ignoring them only leads to the heartache that I’m experiencing now.
I simply need the patience to wait…
…and what a test of patience this will be.
I trust you and I love you, Lord. And I know you will not lead me astray.
I say these things in the name of my savior, Jesus Christ. Amen.