Please help me with my insecurities …
So, my mom doesn’t get it.
My guy and I … it’s true we have quite the age difference.
I’m twenty-six (I’m very young at heart and I don’t look like I’m older than twenty-two at the oldest), while my guy is twenty (he’s a lot more mature than most boys his age through a lot of life experiences).
My mom doesn’t understand.
She asked me what attracted me to him.
I told her the first time he came to YSA FHE. How I thought he was cute. How much of a considerate guy he is. How he’s always smiling.
She think it’s because I’m so wrapped up in the LDS church, and that’s why I’m dating him. Because he’s mormon.
I told her that, since I’ve been single, I’ve had a good number of guys ask me out who are part of the church and aren’t part of the church. For the guys who asked me out who are part of the church, I just was not interested in them. So, I’m not just dating him because he’s mormon. If that was my intent, I would have dated the two other LDS boys who asked me out prior to Chris asking me out.
She actually seemed somewhat satisfied with this answer.
Then she began telling me about the differences between twenty year-olds and twenty-six year-olds. How he’s not calling me because “he’s probably actually spending time with girls that are actually his age.” How he needs to “sow his wild oats.”
I’ve been texting him and he’s been texting me when he can, but I haven’t talked to him on the phone in two days and I’m most likely not going to be able to talk to him tomorrow either.
Can you guys just please give me words of encouragement? I wasn’t too worried before, but my mom has planted this destructive notion in my head that I’m too old for him and/or he’s too young for me, even though we both don’t feel that way about each other.
I guess it’s the lack of time that he has available to contact me which is fueling this fire.
Please, someone, help dowse this rampage of insecurity that’s been started in this fragile, ‘homesick-for-him’ heart of mine. Any words of wisdom?
