January72013

I feel like I’ve known him forever.

I feel like he’s known me forever.

How did this work out?

I used to have another crush in YSA.  We had gone out on one date and I thought we had a really nice time, and then he proceeded to not give me the time of day.  It was really difficult.  I mean, this wasn’t the first time in my life that I had feelings for someone who didn’t have feelings for me, but … that feeling of unrequited love never gets any easier, no matter how many times you’ve been through it.

I kept praying about it.  One time, I prayed, “I’m such a silly girl.  Holding onto hope when it’s not even there.  I’m so heartbroken.”

And Heavenly Father answered, “Daughter, your hope and optimism is to be cherished.  It’s such a rarity in this world.  I will not leave you comfortless for long. Do not give up hope.”

This is just another example of interpreting personal revelation incorrectly.  I took this to mean not to give up hope on my old crush.  But, I think I now know what Heavenly Father was trying to tell me.

Do not give up hope.

Maybe I kept going to YSA activities because I was hoping something would spark between me and my crush.  But what ended up happening was something that was generally unexpected: I started falling for someone else.

I believe that was God’s message to me.  Keep on keeping on.  Don’t give up.  Keep coming to activities.  Continue being righteous.  Don’t give up.  There is love for you.  I will not leave you comfortless.  Look around you.  Don’t give up.

My guy and I … I can’t imagine ever liking anyone else but him.  He have such this firm feeling that he is perfect for me.  He brings out so much good in me.  I can only hope I try to bring out the good in him.

Everyday, I give him another little piece of my heart.  I was going to say, ‘he steals a little piece of my heart,’ but that’s not true.  He asks for it, and I willingly provide.  I trust him, he trusts me.  What else could I ask for?

January42013
Page 1 of 1